Tammy shares the story of her Boudoir Photo Shoot.
When I posted in my Client Group asking for volunteers to share their experience, Tammy quickly offered her story. I am so incredibly excited and proud to share her story because it still gets me teary eyed every time she talks about it. Without further ado, I present you with Tammy's story written by Tammy herself.
I grew up in the late 70’s & 80’s when Jane Fonda made sure we all had flat buns of steel. No curves, no extras & few did. I was only 1 of 2 overweight girls in my school, the other was called “Moose” by everyone because she was tall & big. I had my own names too. I spent my 20’s being told you have a pretty face but… I hate the word but.
By my 30’s I gave up on me & married someone I thought I would grow to love. I couldn’t. I was so miserable. As an always chubby girl I quickly packed on 100 lbs, then 200. I was medically retired at 34 & then it got really bad & gained much more. By New Year’s Eve 2006 I knew I would be 40 in 5 months & would never see 50 if I didn’t drastically change my life. So I had weight loss surgery 2 months before my birthday. I ultimately lost 350 lbs but it didn’t fix my head.
I was in my 50’s, divorced, finally a mom to a beautiful little girl. I just wanted to be a healthy role model for her. My small efforts into dating failed. I was too nice & felt like I didn’t deserve respect & dignity. I couldn’t even call myself a woman because I didn’t feel like I deserved to be called a woman like everyone else. I was just a girl. My weight loss left me looking different than I thought I would. I looked in the mirror & saw a freak.
Many conversations with my bff & her introducing me to Boudi Babes fascinated me. These real women were beautiful & HOT. I so much wanted to believe. When Amanda had a special for new clients with stories that needed to be told she thankfully chose me!!
I was so excited & scared when I showed up for my shoot. I barely slept the night before. I was scared that nothing would fit, nothing would look good, my girls and/or my girly bits would all fall out. I would just be plain or look like a freak.
As we started shooting pics I started to feel kinda sexy, kinda like a bad a$$. It was such new experience!! I was so damned HAPPY!!! I didn’t want it to end. When I saw my pics, I cried. For the 1st time in my life I was a woman. I was sexy!!! Who was that creature?!?! It was me!!! My sesh was like dropping a pebble in a pond. The ripples have changed my life in simple and in profound ways. I am beginning to believe in myself. I stand up for myself. I am learning to say no when I need to & setting healthy boundaries. I am setting a GOOD example for my daughter. Amanda changed my life & I will always be grateful to her & love her for such a gift!!!
xoxo,
Tammy
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